Simply... me.

Sunday, August 14, 2011
Crush

It’s been 6 months. But 3 months-time was all it took to make me act like this. What started from a simple crush, that led to frequent conversations, eventually ended into a heartbreak.
It’s been 6 months, and I’m not over it yet. Maybe you aren’t, but most probably you are.
I didn’t know what you’ve done into me that made me brave enough to tell you honestly how I feel. I’m usually not that vocal. If I could just turn back time and bring back the words I said, and waited for the right time. Or if I could have been earlier enough. Or if I just did nothing. If I could just bring the way it was before. Right. Here I am again thinking the circumstances of what could have been if I did this or if I did not do that. But I couldn’t turn back time. And it sucks. Big time.
I thought there was another chance for me. I was hoping I was the one you were talking about. I was hoping you were just not ready to tell me things. I was hoping you’d tell me someday that I was the one. But it was all hope. I think I gave you enough signs to show you that I care, that I still like you. But I had no answers. If I could just make the first move, maybe I would have done that. But it would really make me look desperate, like what I look like now. But this is not about me begging you to like me again. This is about me venting out my feelings, and this is about me wanting to move on. Maybe writing would make me feel free again. Make me look for love in other people. Make me happy.

posted by Adeline @ 8:27 PM

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RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME:

- M.D. but not yet licensed
- graduated Doctor of Medicine at Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila
- was a junior intern at Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center (it sucked btw. lol)
- currently a post graduate intern at DOH-PCHCS Integrated Internship Program
- BS Bio graduate of the University of the Philippines Manila
- turning 25
- still the shy and quiet Maria Clara
- zodiac: Leo
- inexpressive
- loves sundae ice cream
- loves math but wants to be a doctor
- has uber-sensitive eyes
- ~~loves brewed coffee without sugar~~ loves espresso frap
- N.B.S.B. (sad but true--when will this be deleted?)
- optimistic
- procrastinator
- ~~a person who doesn't know how to get mad at people~~
- serious and quiet but likes to be with crazy and loud people
- secretive
- ~~I'm not really into bio~~ I love Biology
- hates cramming but does it anyway
- oftentimes forgetful
- loves to listen to loud rock music when sad
- likes foodtrippin'
- sundae is my temporary relief from sadness/pain/angst
- thinks that being alone is not a bad thing
- dreams of entering UPmed *sigh* wants to have my internship in PGH and residency in PGH or makati med or asian hospital
- believes in God
- i cry when I get really angry
- i get heaves and super puffy eyes when exposed to extreme cold weather/temp
- i hate perfumes/i don't wear perfumes

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